Today was one of those days where I had to push through each minute.
My mind was trying to go back to old habits. Old ways of thinking. Past ways of dealing.
The biggest misconception that people have about those who have succeeded at massive weight loss and overcame binge eating/food addiction is, that we no longer struggle with cravings and urges.
This couldn’t be farther from the truth.
When I get stressed out, I still want to eat.
I want to go elbow deep into a bag of oreos every single time my anxiety rises.
I still get the urge to order pizza late at night when I’m feeling alone.
I have to control myself at parties and events. I still want to fill my plate full and go back two or three times because everyone else is doing it. So I should be able to as well right?
I have to prepare my self each time I go grocery shopping, only sticking to my list.
The smell of fast food? Instantly makes me want it. Not just a little. A lot.
For 25 years I taught myself that food was comfort. Food was safe. Food kept me from feeling hurt. Food was my friend.
I’ve been using food like cocaine since I was 5 years old.
But here’s the thing...
The urges don’t change. The habits do.
Years of self taught coping mechanisms just don’t go away night. I battle them every day. I’ve just learned how to cope with my shit in a more positive way.
Instead of using food I go to the gym, I read, I go for a walk, I prepare myself ahead of time, I remove my triggers from my environment or remove myself and use meditation. It started with small steps everyday.
Now I see food as a way to heal my body and fuel it not as a security blanket or a distraction.
If you struggle with this as well I want you to know you are strong enough and you can regain control. You can rebuild your relationship with yourself and food.
I would love to be the person to help you.
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